Rock the World 8

20th December 2008, [SiC]_CREW went to Rock the World 8. I didn't really want to go in the first place. Since I Haven't received my gaji yet. I had nothing in my wallet except for my IC, licence and matric card. But, this time, I got to feel how it feels to be like Baby. Haha. Faressa sponsored me for this trip...but I have to pay him back. Haha. Bullshit.

The day started with me getting a call from Acai at 11.30 am. I was still sleeping during that time. 11.30 is still too early for me. Actually it was still too early for any of us. But somehow Acai woke up earlier than any of us. Then i got a call from Faressa asking weather I wanted to go or not. I said no. But eventually he came to my house. Haha (degil gile). Anyways, I told him I was gonna try to ask some money from my mom, but I failed. So, again, I said I couldn't go. But he insisted and said he would sponsor me with the condition that i'll pay him back. Haha. (sbnrnye aku xmintak pn duet..mak aku ade tnye..tp aku ckp Faressa nk sponsor..haha..).

So, finally I got in the car and went with him. We made a stop at Acai's house first. Then we went to meet the others, Faris and Cagu. Cagu was once Acai's kuli during school time, but now, he's even got the nerves to touch me. (Isk3, xsedaq diri pnye kuli..tp Acai kate die skrang da naek pangkat jd employee..ok la..acceptable..). Haha. Once upon a time, cenggini la kitorg. Ade kuli, pengikut, peminat. Haha. But that was in the olden days - in the glory days.

Anyways, back to our main story, then we went to get Arbi at his house in Stapak. After we got him, we went on our way to Stadium Merdeka. But on our way, traffic was like shit. During our time along the way, Arbi was even able to go to the bank. And I was able to buy pisang goreng. All while the car was on the road, stuck in traffic. Haha. I even had time to take pictures of our car in the jam, smoked outside the car. Haha.

Owh, I forgot to mention, we went with 2 cars. Faressa's and Faris's. We were in Faressa's car, none of us in the car knew where to go, so we just followed Faris. But on the way, we lost them. Haha. We called them to ask them where they went. But we agreed to just meet them at the stadium. And then, just before the end of the conversation, they said that they were lost too. Haha. Demmit. So, in the end, we went our way and met up with them at the stadium.

The concert was held at the Secret Gardens next to Stadium Merdeka. The place was quite 'secret'full. But it wasn't quite a garden. More like a construction site, or a car park (name nk glamer je). We reached there around 3.00 pm and got in around 3.30 pm. I met up with some friends of mine there. Friends from from Utp, from my old school, and even my cousin. Haha. What a small world it is. The band performing when we came was the Republic of Brickfields (Awal2 cenggitu layan reggae dlu..nk dpt mood..). Once we got the momentum, mule la g ddk kat tmpt org ramai sharing peluh. Haha. By midnight, bau badan seko2 da mcm palat. Haha. And of course, you can't go to a gig without coming back with nothing broken. Faressa broke his glasses that night, and I broke my handphone. Haha. Bullshit.



That night, during One Buck Short's performance, Arbi got the opportunity to raba a girls ass. Fakiu Arbi! Haha. The girl was right in front of me. I'm not pissed because he got to grab her ass, but I'm pissed because he was grabbing my dick as well. Fakiu! Haha.
p/s: If by chance the girl mentioned is reading this, I apologize for my friend's action. I know how you feel, as I was a victim as well.

After the show, we went to Kg. Baru to eat (lapaq gile..n ketagih okok..somehow kat dlm RTW xde sorg pn yg jual okok..wtf?!? RTW kot?!?..). Finally we went home around 2.00 am. The next day (arinih), I don't know about the others, but my neck, my shoulders, and my back hurts like hell.

p/s: Gambaq2 sume kemudian la aku ltak. Henset aku xle nk masukkn gmbr ke dlm komputer aku lak skrang. Cibai...

2nd [SiC]_Holiday

On the 16th and 17th December this year (smlm dgn kelmarin..), we went for our 2nd [SiC]_holiday. But this time, we went to Genting Highlands. ( nk save bajet..) Our first plan was Pangkor, but...we well know that early planning is bullshit to us. So, in the end we went to Genting Highlands.

As always, there was no initial planning on what to do there, how, when, why..We just went where the wind took us..But unfortunately, because we lack initial planning, Arbi was not able to follow us in this trip..huhu..So, just 4 of us went.

Since this happened just 2 days ago, I can remember it vividly. At 9.30 am on Tuesday, I got a message from faressa, he was at the office. He wanted me to come and fetch him. I was actually still sleeping that time, Baby was with me. He was sleeping over at my house. I slept at 6.30 am on that same day, so there is no way I was getting up that early. But finally, around 10 am, me and Baby woke up to go and fetch him. Unfortunately, haha..my car wouldn't start. But I have an idea why..(kete aku paham perasaan aku..die tau aku xnk bgn lagi..haha). So, I had to jump-start my car. And while doing so, haha..faressa suddenly appeared. Haha. He walked his way to my house (shit..klu x aku xyah pn bgn tidoq).



We stayed for a while, and around 11.30 am, I finally went to take a bath. Haha. And after my bath, I started packing. We went out to Acai's house on my car (idup plak da....haha). I was in a hurry bcause I thought Acai already messaged me that he's ready, but I wasn't the one who read the message, Baby did. And he said he already deleted the message from my phone. So, once we were there, Acai was still sleeping...hahaha...(Fakiu bitch!). Then, Baby confessed, the message earlier was not from Acai, it was from Maxis, that's why he deleted it. Hahahaha...(Fakiu 2 Bitch!). So, we stayed at Acai's room until he was ready.....which was around 2.00 pm..haha. Afterward, we went out for lunch, we went by Acai's car. The funny part is, while we were at the stall, we already started talking about how fun our holiday is (Belom smpi pn lagi genting nye..haha..bilek pn xde booking xde ape..da cite pasal sronok cuti..holiday kali nih..haha).











So, after lunch, we were off. We reached Genting Highlands around 5.00 pm. The first thing we did there was getting rooms..wait..no no, it was...going to the toilet..the second was getting accomodation..Unfortunately, it was still the peak season. So, there were too many people there. We contacted a few friends, family members, anyone else, and finally we got ourselves a room in the Ria Apartments. The room cost us RM 160, and it was about walking distance from the theme park..(tp seko2 pemalas..so, jarak die jadik la lagi jauh..). By the time we went to our room, it was around 6.30 pm. That evening we did nothing until around 8.00 pm, then we went down to get supplies. But after that, we went back upstairs.











We decided to go for a walk at the indoor theme park, since it opens till after midnight, but before we went out, we played poker first. Haha..At first it was still normal poker, but then, we made bets, who ever wins 5 rounds, we would take a picture of him getting kissed by Baby while Baby is naked. Hahahahahha..(dah la sape yg menang lak tuh dapat..hahaha..malang sungguh..) And the winner was....Faressa!! Hahaha..here's a picture of them. Haha.

After having a huge laugh, we finally went to the park. We did nothing much there. Just walking. Going to the toilet. Continued walking. That was quite it. Once bored, we went back to our apartment. Back at the apartment, we continued playing poker, haha. This time, the rules have changed. Whoever loses 10 times, will have to pose for a picture with Baby while Baby is naked again..hahahaha..(menang ke, kalah ke, pape pn, Baby still kene bogel..haha..) First round, Faressa lost...again!..hahhaa..Sorry, no picture, sexually explicit..haha..Second round, Baby lost..haha..So, he had to do a pose by himself..hahahhaa..Finally, Faressa was quite pissed with me, because I was the dealer, and he kept getting shitty cards. Haha. So, he was the dealer for the 3rd round. And in the 3rd round, I lost! SHIT!! haha..(Babi, dapat balas dendam..FAK!) After getting stomach ache for laughing too much, we all finally went to sleep.

The next morning, we woke up around 8.30 am. We prepared ourselves and cleared all our stuff, cause we were checking out. Once cleared, we kept our things in the car and went back to the theme park. We got ourselves the normal ticket for RM 38. There were so many people there. We got tired of watching people walk around. Our first ride was the Pirate Ship. A stupid ride, but we wanted to build up momentum. But, once we were up there, we all felt dizzy (pandang rendah je awal2 tuh..).





Our next ride was the Pirate Train, which is much more stupid than the previous one. It was actually for kids. Haha. But we were already in the line. So, why not. Haha. The ride was for 2 persons, so, I went with Faressa, Acai went with Baby. While waiting in the line, we planned on how to make the ride more interesting. So, what we did was, when me and Faressa's train exit through the door, I made a scared face while he was supposed to be faited (tapi die sebok dok gelak kat aku lak..). Haha. When our train got out from there, there was a boy who kept looking at me with a shocked face. Haha. I couldn't forget his face. He was scared shitless. Haha. Baby on the other hand, he acted to have a seizure while Acai was comforting him. Haha. Everyone on the line was laughing. Haha.

What happened next would make most people jealous of us. Haha. We went to queue for the Space Shot. One of the hottest ride in Genting. So, there we were, queuing. While queuing, suddenly, there was a huge mist built-up. So, the ride was closed. Haha. We were pissed off. So, everyone started getting out. We were quite far from the ride at that time. My guess is, we were around 6 rides before we could get to the entrance. But, since everyone was getting out, we were getting closer. At one point, we were stuck. I still don't know why. The lady in charged suddenly closed the gate and went inside. A few moments later, she got out and the ride was functioning again. Haha. And, we were on the first ride. Haha. (orang2 yg kat dpn kitorg tuh mesti tension giler..haha). Unfortunately, Baby was the only one who didn't manage to get in with us. So, he was in the next ride. But still, haha, what are the odds of that actually happening? It closed, and then, when it was our turn, it opened back again. Haha.





The same thing happened to us with the Corkscrew, which was also one of the hottest rides in there. There even was this guy who came up to us and said, "Buat ape bro? Tutup nih. Lagi 3-4 jam baru bukak balik." But I told him, "Xpe, kitorg tabah menunggu." Haha. And then suddenly, when the queue got shorter, the ride opened again. Haha. (Mesti malu giler mamat tuh..haha..klu jmpe kitorg lg skali..mesti die cangkung pastu mnagis sbb malu..haha)

We continued on playing other rides until we got bored. Finally, around 6.00 pm. We got out and headed down. Back to KL. In KL, before we went back home, we stopped to meet Arbi at his office in Wangsa Maju. That was the end of our holiday.

[SiC]_Holiday

Our first ever [SiC]_CREW holiday was at the Eagle Island (Langkawi...Eagle Island stylo sket). We went there at the end of last year, 2007. Me, Acai, Arbi, Faressa, n Baby, we went for a 3 days and 2 nights trip and we had the time of our lives. Yeah!

We all started heading out by bus from KL, all of us except for Arbi. He was in Parit Buntaq. So, we all stopped at Butterworth. He came there by car with his brother, if I'm not mistaken. From there we headed to Penang by ferry, and walked to the jetty and took another ferry to Langkawi. The ferry to Langkawi from Penang was damn expensive. So, if you're planning to go there, don't go from Penang. Seriously.



Once we've reached the island, we searched for transport. We rented a Proton Wira and got a discount. The standard price was RM150 per day, we got it for RM100. Haha. All thanks to Arbi's uncle who is a taxi driver in Langkawi. His uncle knew those people, so we got a discount. Haha.

From the town, we went to our resort, which is in...I can't recall the name of the place. It's somewhere in Langkawi, that's for sure. The reason why we chose this specific resort was because...hehehe...we got it for free! Haha. The resort owed Faressa's daddy quite a sum of money, so, we got to stay there for free the entire trip. Haha. At first the counter lady asked for a deposit from us, but then, Faressa called his daddy. Haha. What happened next was hysterical. Haha. His daddy called the resort! He said a few bad things (maybe..I'm just guessing here) and the lady canceled the deposit. So, seriously, nothing paid. 3 days and 2 nights for free. RM0. And we took 2 rooms. Haha. Thank you Uncle Saib. Haha.







I couldn't recall exactly what we did day by day. I just remember it as a whole. So, I'll just fill you in on the interesting things that happened on that trip.

Owh, but first and foremost, I must tell you that Baby didn't have money at the time actually. So, as a true friend, I offered to support him for the trip. He brought just around RM70 with him. Now, because of this fact, he was trying to be cheap during the trip. He even bought the cheapest cigarette which was SKY. Haha. It cost RM1 for a pack of 20 (kat Langkawi pn nk bli okok paling murah. Haha). If you want to try this brand, I'll suggest against it. Haha. Because what happened to Baby after he smoked those cigarettes, he got a fever and a serious headache. Haha. I could never forget what happened when he was sick. He was sleeping naked in the other room one evening while we were watching TV on the other. (Sbb die bogel la kitorg kuar dr blk tuh..Haha). Then, a few hours later he went into our room...still naked..Hahaha..Holding his head in pain..Haha..He knew he was naked, but he didn't cared. Hahaha. He only smoked 2 butts of that cigarettes and look what it did to him. Haha. But truth be told, we are all sexually proud of ourselves. So, we don't really care about being naked. Haha. Like Arbi down here. Haha.



Another interesting thing happened during our trip was when we were touring around the island in the car. We happened to stop by the Snake Sanctuary. Since Baby was still being cheap, so we all 'pujuk' the counter guy to give us a discount. Haha. It was successful. We got a free ticket. Haha. So, obviously, it was Baby's ticket. Nothing much to see in the Snake Sanctuary. It was small. Unlike what we expected.





Along our tour around the island, we also stopped at the Telaga 7 waterfall. At first we planned on going to the telaga, but it was too high up. Too much staircase. We couldn't take it. So, we just took a swim at the waterfall down below. The best part is, we didn't even planned on bathing before we left. So, with only our boxers, we jumped in. Haha. Swimming in boxers was no problem at all. Changing back was a problem. We had no towels. Haha. So, I came up with a genius way to change. I tied my shirt aroud my waist, covering only my front, and took my boxer off. Taadaa! Haha. That was how we changed. At one part, there was a family who came down to the waterfall while we were changing. I was looking towards them, Arbi was looking towards me. So, haha, his ass was showing off to them. Hahaha. I saw the look on the father, instantly when he saw Arbi's ass, he took his family running back up the stairs. Hahaha. I can see it in their eyes, as if terus gelap mase depan diorg. Haha.





On the last day there (if I remember correctly), we went for island hopping. They took us to a few islands around Langkawi, and to Tasik Dayang Bunting. You know they say that if you want kids, go to Tasik Dayang Bunting and it would be easy for you. We did an experiment after we got back. We think it was true. Don't question how we know it, just trust me, we know. Haha.







On the last evening, we took a swim at our resort's beach. Until the sun sets.







We got back from Langkawi to the mainland through Kuala Kedah (or Kuala Perlis..wtf do I care) and it was cheaper. Way cheaper. And we head on back to KL by bus. That was what happened in Langkawi. The interesting parts. A lot more happened, but it's not interesting enough for people to read it.

Blind

My latest one yet. I did this this morning after I got up of bed. I just had the music in my head at the time. So, I wrote what ever crossed my mind. This is actually a punk-rock song. Sorry bros..aku layan punk-rock skrang. Even my band played punk-rock..

Once...upon a time,
I loved a girl,
Who's like an angel who came down from the sky,
We...were like,
Salt and pepper,
We'd always be together,
We'd never leave each other behind.

But then one day,
One night,
We were on our way to watch a movie,
On that day,
On that night,
She came up to me and said,
Everything we had was now...officially over.

(Chorus)
You, you,
Why'd you have to go?
I, oh I,
Broken up inside,
You, uuuh,
Left me with a smile,
Why, did I?
Why'd I even try to make you mine at the time?
I just can't seem to find,
I was so blind.

I tried to wash you away,
But your memories stayed,
I could still feel your arms in my mind,
I tried to drink you away,
Your memories they were gone,
But I'd have to stay there from dusk to dawn,
I tried to confront you today,
But your memories they were still there,
So, I couldn't even make it,
I couldn't even make it to your door.

There...was a time,
When I loved a girl,
Who's like the goddess of the river of Nile,
We...were like,
night and day,
We'd always stayed together,
We'd never even put up a fight.

But then one day,
One night,
We were on our way to have a dinner,
On that day,
On that night,
She came up to me and said,
Everything we had was then...officially over.

(Chorus)
You, you,
Why'd you have to go?
I, oh I,
Broken up inside,
You, uuuh,
Left me with a smile,
Why, did I?
Why'd I even try to make you mine at the time?
I just can't seem to find,
I was so blind.

You, you,
I, oh I,
You, you,
I, oh I,

(Chorus)
You, you,
Why'd you have to go?
I, oh I,
Broken up inside,
You, uuuh,
Left me with a smile,
Why, did I?
Why'd I even try to make you mine at the time?
I just can't seem to find,
I was so blind.

Undangan Kawen

Invitation to all [SiC]_CREW members to Acai's big brother's wedding. Come one, come all.

The [SiC]_ness in me

These are among the things I've done in my life that some people wouldn't understand the logic for why someone would undertake such actions. My reason is simple, why I do these things are for my own pleasure. I love the adrenaline which comes with doing such actions. I love to see the reactions I receive from people for doing those actions. And perhaps because I'm not the most sane and stable person on this planet. But truth be told, I believe none on this planet fits the description of sane or stable. Everyone must have their own craziness and instability. So, this is mine.















These things doesn't come without a price. This is an example of what I have to pay:

This one was when I got burned. The video just above. The one thing harder than having to endure this pain is to keep it a secret from my parents. Haha. They didn't even knew I have this injury during that time.

Owh, and 1 more thing, just to clarify here, what's written on my arm (the scar on my right arm) it spells [SiC] (with opened and closed brackets). It doesn't spell CSI, it doesn't spell SIGS ( Sultan Ibrahim Girls School..wtf??? Why would I even consider writing this???)

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The strength of friendship

This is proof of our undisputed love for each other. Haha. Me, Baby and Faressa went out without inviting Acai. So, die merajuk la. Haha. This is Baby's conversation to pujuk him.

malevolant_sic: lepak x ajak
nidzar: mane ko tau aku on9..
malevolant_sic: itu x penting
nidzar: sori la cai..aku ngan muja xd kredit..
nidzar: mase ko msg faresa da blk'
nidzar: die sje yg ade kredit..
malevolant_sic: sedih la aku
nidzar: sory cai..
nidzar: lg pon muja g umah bapak die kt usj..
nidzar: kire lua kawalan aku la..
malevolant_sic: takpe lah..
malevolant_sic: now i knoe
malevolant_sic: know
nidzar: sori cai..
nidzar: ko knal aku kan..
nidzar: kalo aku ade kredit mmg aku msg ko..
nidzar: mse muja dtg ngan kamal aritu pon aku msg ko..
nidzar: ape la 7sen nk msg ko dr kenangan yg kita cipta pabila bersama..
nidzar: sgguh tidak ku sangka begini akhirnya
nidzar: atas kecuaian diriku..
nidzar: dirimu tiada
nidzar: tiada lg..
malevolant_sic: takpe lah...7 sen kau x sanggup keluar kan untuk sehelai msg
malevolant_sic: begitu rendah harga persahabatn kau dgn diriku
nidzar: tp aku xd kredit cai..
nidzar: ko tau2 la cuti ni..dgn khdpan ku sbg pnganggur..
nidzar: nk beli topup rm5 pon nk kene bajet..
nidzar: aku tiada siapa cai..
nidzar: cintaku hanyalah sic_crew..
nidzar: apa saja untuk mu
nidzar: xku hiraukan waktu
nidzar: katakan saja..kan ku laksana..permaisuri kau bertakhta di ji...
nidzar: wa..
malevolant_sic: sedih aku..siap sorok tu appear offline
malevolant_sic: kau menjauhkan dirikau dari aku
malevolant_sic: sebab ape aku tak tahu
malevolant_sic: tuhan saje yg tahu
nidzar: aku ngaku cai..aku tkt ko kecewa dgn sikap aku..
nidzar: sudah cai..jgn kau lafazkan..
nidzar: hasrat di jiwa..kerana ia akan menambah luka..
malevolant_sic: perpisahan bermula..
malevolant_sic: dari dua hati..
malevolant_sic: yang permintaannya x dituruti
malevolant_sic: besarkan hasratku nk lepak bersama
malevolant_sic: besar sgtkah nilai 7 sen
malevolant_sic: aku pon tidak past
pasti
nidzar: aku mengerti cai..tp resam org berniaga..
nidzar: tiada topup berharga 7sen di pasaran..
nidzar: sudahla cai..aku minta maaf
nidzar: mari kta bina cinta kita seperti dahulu..
nidzar: cinta yg tiada sempadan..
nidzar: cinta yg bergelora ku impikan
malevolant_sic: luka di hati ku entah bila kan sembuh
malevolant_sic: aku pon tidak pasti
malevolant_sic: pabila mengetahui korg lepak x ajak aku
malevolant_sic: aduh
malevolant_sic: pedihnya
nidzar: tidak mngapalah cai..
nidzar: biala dosa itu ku tanggung sendri..
nidzar: sementelahan aku tiada kudrat tuk mnghadapinya..
nidzar: aku bgai pak sanggup..ke sana jalan mati..di sini jln ke pintu neraka..
nidzar: apakan daya..seolah tiada jodoh di antara kita
nidzar: diriku tlh cuba mnjadi tbaik utk dirimu
nidzar: tp msih tdk mncukupi..
malevolant_sic: aku mula rasai..walaupun aku cube mengelah
malevolant_sic: mengelak
malevolant_sic: jalan ke shah alam semakin berkabus
malevolant_sic: aku semakin buntu
malevolant_sic: hala tuju ke shah alamku sudah semakin pudar
malevolant_sic: mengapa oh mengapa
nidzar: akan ku hembus dgn nafas cinta di hati kerasmu itu utk menerima kembali diriku..
nidzar: aku berubah kerna dirimu..
nidzar: aku singkirkan prasaan cinta kpd prmpuan demi sic_crew..
nidzar: kembalilah kepada dakapan ku cai..
nidzar: aku mnyintaimu sprti mana aku mnyintai diriku..
nidzar: kau bagai kan roh..aku bgaikan jasad
nidzar: jika tpisah keduanye..tidak keruanlah diriku ini
malevolant_sic: sial la
malevolant_sic: ayat manis
malevolant_sic: hahahah
malevolant_sic: aku nk mrajuk gak
nidzar: puki da la..xpasal2 aku kne gune ayat tuk ngorat pompuan satu ari nnt
nidzar: sori la cai..
malevolant_sic: hahaha
malevolant_sic: ko la x msg
malevolant_sic: tah pape tah
malevolant_sic: aku baru nk ajak kau lepak
malevolant_sic: trus takde mood
nidzar: aku xd kredit la..serius..
nidzar: muja pon xd
nidzar: faresa ade..tp die da blk
malevolant_sic: oke

Bangun dari tidur

This song was written when I couldn't sleep one night. It was sort of a lullaby. It was written when I wanted to sleep, so, most of the thing I put in the lyrics are about sleeping. Haha. But it works. Seriously. Can't say if it does to you too, but to me it works. My very own lullaby.

Biarpun hari berlalu,
Tanpa apa pun yang bererti berlaku,
Kepadaku.

Malam ni ku kan lena,
Diulit mimpi yang indah,
Tentangmu, tentangmu.

(Chorus)
Kerna kau,
Terlalu istimewa,
Kau terlalu mengasyikkan,
Di mata, di jiwa,
Kerna kau,
Terlalu sempurna,
Hingga tak mampu ku memilikimu,
Ku tak mampu,
Kau terlalu jauh di depanku.

Mentari bersinar lagi,
Namun tak mahu ku bangun dari tidur,
Ku tak mahu.

Kerna ku tak mahu meninggalkan,
Kebahgiaan khayalanku denganmu,
Denganmu.

(Chorus)
Kerna kau,
Kau lah bidadari,
Kau lah bintang-bintang,
Di langitku, di malamku,
Kerna kau,
Kau terlalu berharga,
Kau terlalu bermakna,
Kepadaku, selalu,
Ku tak mampu mencapai tanganmu.

(Biarpun hari berlalu,
Tanpa apa pun yang bererti berlaku,
Kepadaku.

Kerna ku tak mahu meninggalkan,
Kebahgiaan khayalanku denganmu,
Denganmu.

Malam ni ku kan lena,
Diulit mimpi yang indah,
Tentangmu, tentangmu.

Mentari bersinar lagi,
Namun tak mahu ku bangun dari tidur,
Ku tak mahu.) x 2

Biarpun hari berlalu,
Tanpa apa pun yang bererti berlaku,
Kepadaku.

(Chorus)
Kerna kau,
Terlalu sempurna,
Hingga tak mampu ku memilikimu,
Ku tak mampu,
Kau terlalu jauh di depanku.
Kerna kau,
Kau terlalu berharga,
Kau terlalu bermakna,
Kepadaku, selalu,
Ku tak mampu mencapai tanganmu.

Biarpun hari berlalu,
Tanpa apa pun yang bererti berlaku,
Kepadaku.

Malam ni ku kan lena,
Diulit mimpi yang indah,
Tentangmu, tentangmu.

Ku tak mahu bangun dari tidur.

How stupid of me

This song is about someone. I'm sure of it. But I just can't recall about whom. But anyways, this was written sometime a year ago. Maybe. If you've read through my posts, all the song I couldn't recall when I wrote it, I'd say it was written a year ago. Betul ke x pn I wouldn't know actually.

I woke up,
Thought of you,
My heart is filled with love for you,
I got up,
Went outside,
I took a breath and I breathed you.

Owh, the sun is shining bright today,
As bright as my heart would have been,
But when I saw you it faded away,
You were with him walking my way.

(Chorus)
I couldn't belive,
You stabbed me and left me to bleed,
How could I've seen?
I never thought it would turn like this,
I couldn't believe,
You'd break me and step on the pieces,
How could this be?
You were never in love with me,
How stupid of me,
How could I've believe,
How stupid of me.

Where have all your promises gone?
Where are your lies?
Where are your cons?
What happened to forever and ever babe?
With the wind it fade away.

Owh, why didn't I see,
I could have known,
I could have thought about it,
I could have sworn,
You were so wild,
You were so cold,
You were so sly,
You were so bold.

(Chorus)
I couldn't belive,
You stabbed me and left me to bleed,
How could I've seen?
I never thought it would turn like this,
I couldn't believe,
You'd break me and step on the pieces,
How could this be?
You were never in love with me,
How stupid of me,
How could I've believe,
How stupid of me.

Nights spent alone,
Even the stars seems to be gone,
Been restless, laying for hours,
Thinking of you makes me feel so wrong.

(Chorus)
I couldn't belive,
You stabbed me and left me to bleed,
How could I've seen?
I never thought it would turn like this,
I couldn't believe,
You'd break me and step on the pieces,
How could this be?
You were never in love with me,
How stupid of me,
How could I've believe,
How stupid of me.

(How stupid of me) x3

Wait, listen and stay

This one is about a year ago when I wrote it. To tell you the truth, I can't even remember how to sing it. Let alone how to play it. But maybe if I have time I'll try to put some rhythm into it. (sbnrnye bkn klu ade mase, klu rajen..haha).

I'm wakin' up,
now, today,
I watched the sun,
rise, and fade,
I feel like every minute sped through me like I'm not there.

I took a turn,
left, or right?
Now I'm lost,
I'm trapped inside,
I can't seem to find my way back to you, by your side.

But still I...belive,
That every moment,
will come...back...to me,
And still I...belive,
That every wrong will end up right.

(Chorus)
Would you wait for me there?
Just stay, stay, stay there for me babe,
Would you hear what I have to say?
Just listen, listen, listen to me babe,
And would you leave with me tonite?
And would you live by my side?
Would you stay with me day and night?
Just say, say, say you love me babe.

I'm lookin' up,
into the sky,
I'm countin' all,
the stars that shine,
And I'm thinking all the ways that we could live our lives.

I watched the world,
turn night and day,
I watched the sun and moon change place,
And I would wait for you forever like this, everyday.

But still I...believe,
That every night..will break...with light,
And still I...believe,
That every second brings you closer to me.

(Chorus)
Would you wait for me there?
Just stay, stay, stay there for me babe,
Would you hear what I have to say?
Just listen, listen, listen to me babe,
And would you leave with me tonite?
And would you live by my side?
Would you stay with me day and night?
Just say, say, say you love me..

I watched the world,
turn night, and day,
I watched the sun and moon change place,
And I would wait for you forever...

(Chorus)
Would you wait for me there?
Just stay, stay, stay there for me babe,
Would you hear what I have to say?
Just listen, listen, listen to me babe,
And would you leave with me tonite?
And would you live by my side?
Would you stay with me day and night?
Just say, say, say you love me babe.

Would you wait, wait, wait for me?
Would you stay, stay, stay with me?
And would you leave with me tonite?
And would you live by my side?
Would you stay with me day and night?
Just say, say, say you love me...
Say, say, say, say you love me...
Say, say, say, say you love me babe.

Tentang Sarah

This is one of my archive songs. I wrote this song last year if I'm not mistaken.

This is a song about someone. If you're smart, I'm sure you can guess who is it for. (Obviously, sarah la...) But let me get one thing straight. I know dozens of sarahs in my life. But this song is only for one of them. I'm not gonna say which one. So, those sarahs who know me, sape yang prasan lebey tuh, if you think this song is about you, think again.

Kau di sana,
Di sebalik kealpaan dunia,
Kau bersinar,
Umpama bidadari,
Kau berdiri,
Tiada kata yang mampu menggambarkan,
Keindahan,
Cahaya di sebalik bayanganmu.

(Chorus)
Apa lagi yang harus kubuat, untuk kau sadari,
Apa lagi yang perlu kulakukan, tuk kau nampakku di sini,
Ku juga punya, hati, jiwa dan sanubari,
Ku melihatmu, namun di matamu, aku tersembunyi,
Apa lagi yang hatimu pinta, ku tak mengerti,
Kau berdiri, di sana, aku berdiri di sini.

Berselisih,
Ku berjalan sebelahmu,
Kau tak berpaling,
Inginku menegurmu,
Tapi ku khuatir,
Takkan termampu ku memilikimu,
Engkau jauh,
Kau jauh.

(Chorus)
Apa lagi yang harus kubuat, untuk kau sadari,
Apa lagi yang perlu kulakukan, tuk kau nampakku di sini,
Ku juga punya, hati, jiwa dan sanubari,
Ku melihatmu, namun di matamu, aku tersembunyi,
Apa lagi yang hatimu pinta, ku tak mengerti,
Kau berdiri, di sana, aku berdiri di sini.

Kau lah cahaya,
Di lubuk hatiku,
Kau permaisuri,
Dalam mimpi-mimpiku,
Kau lah permata,
Dalam peti hartaku,
Kau lah misteri,
Yang tak mampu kutemui kebenaranmu.

Apa lagi yang harus kubuat, untuk kau sadari,
Apa lagi yang perlu kulakukan, tuk kau nampakku di sini.

(Chorus)
Apa lagi yang harus kubuat, untuk kau sadari,
Apa lagi yang perlu kulakukan, tuk kau nampakku di sini,
Ku juga punya, hati, jiwa dan sanubari,
Ku melihatmu, namun di matamu, aku tersembunyi,
Apa lagi yang hatimu pinta, ku tak mengerti,
Kau berdiri, di sana, aku berdiri di sini.

Apa lagi....ku berdiri di sini,
Ku juga punya...kau berdiri di sana,
Jangan pergi...kau tak mampu kumiliki,
Kau berdiri....di sana, aku berdiri di sini.

(Oh, apa lagi yang harus kulakukan,
Oh, apa lagi.) repeat until you get tired...

Love of my life

This is the latest song I wrote.
Got the idea when I was on the verge of sleeping. Unlike my previous songs. This one is about no one specifically. But I'd like to dedicate this to someone.....on second thought...xjd la..

I listened but I can't hear a thing,
I'm looking but I couldn't see the light that I am looking for,
You,
You're here but you're not with me,
You're here but you're not anywhere beside me,
I...can't...live like this...anymore,
I...can't...breathe.

(Chorus)
I've been thinking about you,
Everyday and every night,
I've been waiting for you,
To be here by my side,
I would do anything your heart desire,
and everything just to turn you into,
The love of my life.

I saw you the other day,
But you were walking the other way,
So...I...just...stood...there...looking at you,
I've always...stood...there...waiting for you,
You're here but you're not with me,
You're here but you're not anywhere beside me,
I...can't...seem to find the reasons why,
I...can't...have you for myself and call you mine for the rest of my life.

(Chorus)
I've been thinking about you,
Everyday and every night,
I've been waiting for you,
To be here by my side,
I would do anything your heart desire,
and everything just to turn you into,
The love of my life.

Everything you wish for,
The sun, the moon, the seas, the sky,
The air, the light, the wind, and my life,
...I'd give it all to you.

(Chorus)
I've been thinking about you,
Everyday and every night,
I've been waiting for you,
To be here by my side,
I would do anything your heart desire,
and everything just to turn you into...

(Chorus) x2

I listened but I can't hear a thing,
I'm looking but I couldn't see the light that I am looking for,
You.